She, being the midwife and your mother’s longtime friend, said I see a heart; can you see it? And on the grey display of the ultrasound there you were as you were, our nugget, in that moment becoming a shrimp or a comma punctuating the whole of my life, separating its parts—before and after—, a shrimp in the sea of your mother, and I couldn’t help but see the fast beating of your heart translated on that screen and think and say to her, to the room, to your mother, to myself It looks like a twinkling star. I imagine I’m not the first to say that either. Unlike the first moments of my every day, the new of seeing you was the first —deserving of the definite article— moment I saw a star at once so small and so big, so close and getting closer every day, I pray.
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